Friday, March 25, 2005

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

waaay down and OUT

25TH MARCH 2005

woke up wit a bout of depression and back pain. pms doesn't help a bit! really thinkin bout my muscle rexants now....... its 35mg morphine u noe..... i'll be knocked out and i'll wake up happy if i take it. hhmmm..... should i? i can't even sit up for half an hour, my back is killing me!

chocolates aren't helping! oh no! i woke up in a fetal position and didn't feel like getting up at all for the day....... till i remembered my abnormal psych class.... DEPRESSION. i HAD to get up. and liza asked me out for a walk. she needed to top up her pre-paid and i should get out of the house. so i did. but once i came back......... its a downward spiral all over again. aiyoh! (really thinkin bout muscle relaxants now!)

and oh! that psychotic guy who tried to hook me up at the airport last november called again. only today i answered the fon like myself and HE'S the one calling! will he ever stop? gosh! i've been answering the fon like one scared shit all these while and when i finally forgot bout mr. psycho, HE RANG. when will i ever attract a proper man? i need a man, not a psycho. i'm sick of attracting psycho-s... its makin me scared of men u noe.

oh God, i really need to see a sign.... wats wrong wit me? don't tell me depression coz i already noe. been having this bout of 'sudden feeling to cry' pretty often these last few days. i wanted to cry when i watched american idol juz now when the 1st person had to from the final 12 (but i didn't coz i don't really like her anyway). i feel like crying now. i want to be all ALONE (again).

*frustruated like crazy*
*muscle relaxants..... should i? should i not?*

+ > the glamour babe posted at 10:50 PM < +